I’ve come up with a rationalisation for my poor compliance with anti-depressants medication, perhaps I’m seeking to retrospectively justify poor behaviour, but I find psychology often reaches for these kinds of descriptors to justify unkind interactions with patients all too often. How can you test the suitability of the sauce without tasting it? Either you blindly trust that the combination of ingredients is deterministic or you taste and calibrate it. Part and parcel of the experience of depression is a distrust of ones’ perceptions, calibration is required, and whilst wearing a veil of medication its impossible to taste the experience, and perhaps the intermittance adherence to a mediciation schedule is akin to tasting my current experiences.
— LostLetterbox